One Among Many

Almost 10:00 PM...took almost an extra hour to get Jack to bed...kept screaming out for us...when I went in he jumped in my arms and said "Book!" over and over again through is tears...I drew a line when I set him down on the floor, in the pitch black of our bedroom he stood there, gazing into nothingness but i could feel it nonetheless...then without a word he walked out of our bedroom, into the darkness of the hallway and back into his bedroom...in the green gloew emanating from his humidifier I watched him tap on the bars of his crib...I lifted him in the air, laid him down and put his monkey in his arms...covered him in his blanket and walked out, quietly closing the door behind me...

For the last hour I've been listening to the monitor...there hasn't been a sound.